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Kid Cudi seeks help for depression

By | Published on Thursday 6 October 2016

Kid Cudi

Kid Cudi has written a post on Facebook, telling fans that he is seeking help for depression.

The rapper wrote: “It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans. Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges”.

“I am not at peace”, he continued. “I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. There’s a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. I don’t know what peace feels like. I don’t know how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I can’t make new friends because of it. I don’t trust anyone because of it and I’m tired of being held back in my life”.

“I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared, I’m sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I’m sorry. It’s time I fix me. I’m nervous but ima get through this”.

With his new album, ‘Passion, Pain And Demon Slayin’, due out this month, he said that he would not “be around to promote much”, but that his label Republic and manager Dennis Cummings would handle that in his absence. Although he said that he hoped to be able to attend Long Beach, California’s Complexcon in early November “for high fives and hugs”.

“Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down”, he concluded. “I really am sorry. I’ll be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. I’m sorry”.

If you are experiencing depression, you can contact The Samaritans on 116123 or music industry specific helpline Music Support on 0800 030 6789.

Read Mind’s guide to depression here.